After a few weeks of planning a new schedule and feeling strongly that I can go to the temple and make it work. I was able to go because of a babysitting swap. Life at times can be challenging and I knew that I have been neglecting my covenants and responsibility as well as comfort guidance and blessings by not going to the temple. At this time in my life, I know that it is hard with a little one at home, but I realized I will do 3 babysitting swaps a week so I can work in the classroom. While that is important, it is more important that I be spiritually uplifted so I can be a better mother and wife, which makes the additional volunteering possible and beneficial.
Today I went and it was so worth it and man was my life enriched because of it. I won’t go into all the details of why, but I want to share with you a particular aspect. I got to the temple a bit early and was waiting for the 7:00am session to start. The room never filled up. Finally one couple and another lady showed up. We proceeded to begin the session. As I looked around I had the distinct feeling that they were there because I was. It seems vain, but I truly believe they were temple workers who made sure that session happened because I needed it to. At the end of the session we say a prayer. The purpose of the prayers is to pray over the names that have been shared by temple visitors. During this prayer they also prayed for those who were in the session that day. I cannot recall the words exactly, but in this prayer I was told through confirmation of the spirit that Heavenly Father Loves me and will give me the strength that I need. I am not alone, He will never leave me! When the prayer was over, tears started flowing and I had to control myself so that it wouldn’t turn into sobbing. They were tears of joy and peace.
The love that I felt in that moment knowing that all those people in that room participated so I could have this experience was amazing. I know we have to go through hard things, but we also need to receive the love of our Father in Heaven. I am grateful for the blessings of the temple and the peace that resides inside. I am grateful for a friend who is willing to watch Jackson so I can go to the temple and for a husband who will get the children ready for school without giving instructions so I can go early. Lastly I am grateful for my children who asked many times when is Mommy coming home, they missed me!